*Weeps inconsolably*

Well, on the 17th of august I got back from holiday and completed FFVII, yeah, completed it. *Sobs*. Why the delay? Lazyness, "My life has no purpose now", remorse, a need to spend all day looking for yaoi. Is that okay? E-mail's a little bit behind too... I pathologicaly NEED either FFIX or possibly FFIIX. On the plus side, My tablet is working and I am capable of creating wonderfull pictures of Sephiroth's left eye without scanning. That's pretty much it, but I'm also rendering... it's not going tooooo bad acctualy, an improvement on how the picture looked before. Wait... There it is! An EYE! I quite like it, Esp. since I did it in the vastly inferior PSP... as opposed to my beloved but confusing and anal Photoshop or the ultimate but crap at filters GIMP... little ahead of paint, but one can only try.

Oh, dear god, no!

Well, I have Omnislash, I have KOTR, I have Ultima Weaopn, I have Vince's level four and Death Penalty, I have a gold Chocobo... All I got to do now is Get W-Summon and Final Attack, Walk throught the Gelnika without dying, defeat or try misserably there-to the last remaining WEAPONS... Then, I have to get on with the acctual game... *Sobs* I'm delaying now more than I was near the end of Disk two... (I didn't play the game for two weeks....) Anyway, I guess It's time for my favorite Character to die... as much as he's going to. Three cheers for Lucretia!

WOOT! FFVII ROCKS!

I'm on disc 3, I have four mastered all materia, I have a Gold Chocobo, I have W-Item to duplicate whatever I want, I have most of the worthwile Gold Saucer Prizes... I have ludicrous ammounts of Gil, and I have a Sidewinder Gamepad to play it with. It's supprising how much easier it is to play games with a gamepad rather than a keyboard. The secret to breeding a good chocobo: Give even the parents of you Green/Blue greens, because then... you get green/blue rather than "ANOTHER ****ING YELLOW!". Hem. It was worth it in the end.... well, it was fun once I fed some sylkis to my yellows, I got the chocobo I wanted every time (Provide the parents where fed and trained too). Took me about an hour to go from two yellows and a green to Green, Blue, Black, Gold and Yellow. My luck> other peole's luck. I may have to go into the northen crater soon.... I'm scared, because the enemies in NC aren't particularly difficult to beat, but they ALL have at least one reason to be considered a hardcore arse-pain. I mean, Gargoyles? Meh, I have enemy away, that might make it more bareable.... might.

Well, low or low.

Ueah, I'm breeding Chocobos! Don't look at me like that! I like it, okay!? I know it's lame... but hell, it's acctualy rather fun. Anyway, I got a green one... well, two green ones... three green ones... anyway, look, I have a green one or more and so I went to Vincent's waterfall... oh, dear god... no wonder everyone in this game is so miserable. It makes me cry, realy it does... One of these days. I'm taking Sephiroth, Vincent and a doctor certified for paternity tests there to straighten that lot out... poor kid. If it's realy Hojo, I'll just make the doctor lie.. it'll keep people happy. Hell, even if they never had sex....... mmmm... *Mental images* Sorry, what was I talking about? Anyway, so long as she's cute, I'm happy. It's a living fact that all people called Lucretia are cute... it's my favorite name. People called Grimoir or people with a lot of (any) Vs in their names are also good. Not to mention people with long grey hair... I love long hair, AND grey hair.... Oh, dear got do I love Aerith... I miss her sooo much! Lucrecia has like, always been my favorite girls name, after my own. Now, I need to go breed a blue male thing, cya!

SCORE! Disk 2! Emotional Hell!

Yeah, sorry about how late this is, two days without the internet, but yes, I got on to disk two.... *SPOLIERS* and spent most of the day crying... And seeing as she was a very important part of my party, it's not been easy replacing her. I always need on girl to weild a lot of materia.... but, somehow, Tifa sucks worse... at combat AND at magic... But it's okay, she's off looking after my other decent character.... I went from having three avaliable level 50+s, to now, just one, through death and Mako-poisoning. I have come up with a realy realy good tactic for that realy difficult Twinhead boss... it's one of three times I've had to re-take a boss batle... and I had no materia for the first two (Raps and the gunner-lift thingy... if they'd told me I'd have to fight a boss in ranged only, I'd've taken the materia!) Anyway, I've just got three more huge materia quests... Passed the first one and saved Corel... With 1 second to spare! Although, if I didn't have a walkthrough, I'd still be on the first boss, trying to kill it before it lasered me... I'm back to beliving James, when he said that Nanaki was one of the best charaters... he's REALY good. God... I miss my Aerith. *Tears... again*

The sky was so beautifull this morning. It's been a while since I woke up at my usualy time of 5:30, it's been almost 7 or 8 recently, and it was wonderfull to open my eyes fully and wake up properly to a kind of dark fantastic white light. Fantastic's always the right word, not amazing, or incredible. Fantasy... nothing in real life interests me, only fantasy. That early moring light reminded me of Dustfinger, it's strange to think of him now... I suppose I love Aerith, Sephiroth, Vincent and Cloud like I used to love Dustfinger... and still do of course... after a while though, I loved him rather than was obsessed with him, so he had to go, because I can't not be obsessed with anything otherwise I start thinking about Yassen again, and get dangerously depressed. Loving someone so much I can't think of anything else has always been essential.... even right the way back to when I was tiny and obsessed with LOTR... in a very vague way. I havn't got anywhere in FFVII.... I'm still on the clock. I can get past any chalenge, any puzzle.... but I can't tell the time on an analogue clock..... I just got bored, I guess. It's true though, I'm terrible at thelling the time.I find it hard enough to read it from digital.... I can't say the time in any language.... I honestly think if you can tell the time in Russian, you're a genius. I could if I tried.... but I don't. Okay, I can in French and German.... to an extent.... well, I forgot how to in Russian. I once got to the busstop at four in the morning because I miss-read my watch. Tragic. Watched Advent Children in English today... ow! I've got the lightbulb back in my room too, so I can draw again... and not just simple stuff either... Shounen-ai fanart! No details, right? I'm thinking of resurecting my site... need a good layout though, which means I need good images to make one of.... And, FFVII images at that. I did finish my modifications on that picture of Cloud.... Maybe I can post it.... There, that's Cloud. I have ones where I left the hair, and ones where I left the clothes too... I'm not sure about the hair, it looks a lot faker than the rest... and I can't get the shade of lipstick right, but it's a start. He looks better than he did originaly ^_^.